I spent my second day of lunar new year at Malaysia again. Every year, I would get to meet up with my cousins, po po, uncles and aunties of my mum’s side. I have always looked forward to spending my CNY at Malaysia because my mother could finally meet her mother and siblings for just that one day annually. Every year, I would also learn about new things about my Malaysia relatives. This year, I am very happy to know that my smallest uncle got himself a girlfriend and brought her back to popo house. He is not young already, and I know it is very lonely to be single at his age. Although the lady is from China, she seems to be quite nice and sincere when she talks to me. It’s good to see that uncle has got a new direction in life. I’m sure popo will be very happy to see her last child finding his own happiness too (:
The highlight for my Kampung CNY visit this year was my first BBQ with my cousins! Since young, I have no close cousins in Singapore. They are all males, and are either too young, or too old. Or rather should I say, they don’t really put in effort to know their cousins although we all live in one small country and so near each other. Moreover, mum’s friends’ children were 99% males. Hence since young, I had always admired people who have sisters or close cousins. This time round at the BBQ, my female cousins brought their husbands along, as well as their little kids – my nephews and nieces. They are so cute! Although we only get to meet once a year, I can’t agree more that my this batch of female cousins in Msia never fail to make me feel left out or disconnected with them. Although they are much older than me, i never felt age gap between us. we took photos during the bbq like a group of sisters and I felt so good (: Didi also agreed that our Malaysian cousins make us feel like our kinship can be taken a step further, feels like we could become really close if only we had more chances to interact.
After we came home, mum told didi and me about our family in malaysia, about all the evil aunts and the greed over money. About how popo survived in her days as a daughter-in-law, about how capable she had been and the fact that she actually gave birth to a total of 21 children!!!! And guess what?! There were a total of 3 pairs of twins! I was so excited by the fact that it means I would have high chance of giving birth to twins in future too! hahahaha. But then later when i asked mum about her dad and mum’s families, whether they had instances of twins, she said NOT AT ALL! So i guess, it falls down to Maths.. The more children you give birth to, the higher chance you will have twins. So I shall try to give birth to more kids to have higher chance of giving birth to twins next time hhahahahahaha
I don’t know if Lunar New Year wishes exists but if it does, I wish for my Singapore aunt to find her happiness soon, just like my Malaysian uncle. It’s so hard to be alone, working such a stressful job, shopping alone, eating alone, and having to partly bear the Neo family’s financial burden. Every time she tells me she’s still in office, that she’s sick, tired, and binging on happy food again to destress, and that she’ll never slim down, I don’t know what to reply but to say take care and jiayou. The 2 most useless consolation words one can say. I really hope her happiness can quickly appear in her life. Everyone deserves a little love every day. No one would want to be lonely for life.
Anw, this rabbit year, i find myself changing.. My priorities have shifted over the years. I’ve become much less intiative and enthusiastic about meeting new friends and more focussed on forging tighter bonds within my family. As the usual saying goes, all we need are close friends and good friends. I no longer have the time to manage so many friendships, only to be disappointed by a few who never understands how tiring it is for friendships to be a one-man show. I find myself happier this way (:
Pray a little love for your close ones each day,
Today I pray for my aunt and Anna&Mark’s parental quest!
RABBY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!
can’t push everything away like i was at korea anymoreee
